Thursday, March 4, 2010

Stillness and... Bandhas??

I try not to do this often, but tonight, I gotta brag! In a previous post, I wrote about stillness. My yoga practice has increased my ability to be still four-fold outside the hot room, which I'm incredibly grateful for. I actually have the tendency to slip into anxiety-ridden phases, and yoga has kept me out of that for so long. More on that in a future post ;-)

That focus on stillness is finally beginning to reflect itself in my yoga practice! I struggle so much with balance, but today, for the first time in twelve years of practicing some form of yoga on a fairly regular basis, I got into full toe stand and balanced. Completely.

I could feel it happening as I went into the posture. I stared at the discoloration in the carpet with laser beam focus as I bent forward. Both knees were pointing down. I finally figured out what the teachers mean when they say, "Butt off the heels!" Butt went off the heels, and the hands went off the ground. And not just a quick clap--I felt like I would be able to hold it for quite a while.

Stillness is the only word to describe what I was feeling in the posture. Everything around me was quieted, and the people wobbling around, the heaters blowing, it was all so distant. There was that sense of internal harmony that I usually get only occasionally in postures I feel I "excel" at.
Toe-stand
My teacher often reminds the class that progress in yoga doesn't usually happen quickly. She mentions that many students come in hoping for quick-fixes for their chronic troubles. "In the West," she said, "we want the change instantly. Now. Pronto. But real change happens slowly. It's deeper, and then you appreciate it more." And what sweet moments when you actually see the results! I felt like a little kid who'd just been hugged by her favorite adult when the teacher noticed my posture and said, "Pretty good, Elisa."

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On a sort-of related note, I have found bringing some of the principles I learned in Ashtanga yoga has helped me in working on stillness. I've been thinking about mula bandha, the root (perineum) lock.  In Ashtanga, we were taught to aim to contract it constantly--I could never get close to that--but going back to it as much as I could remember to do was helpful there, and it's helpful now. I am sure that regular Bikram practitioners are engaging mula bandha often (especially in poses like Eagle), but consciously engaging that muscle can add a certain lift and levity to the practice, if not a tremendous shock of energy. It's one more thing that we can be conscious about!

(Also related are Uddiyana Bandha and Jalandara Bandha, the stomach and throat locks--Bikram teachers often point to sucking in the stomach and compressing the thyroid. This is definitely referring to bandhas!)

10 comments:

Sisya said...

Wonderful!

sfauthor said...

Nice posting. Do you know about these bandha books?

http://www.yogavidya.com/freepdfs.html

poeticalsurfer said...

I'm impressed. Congratulations!

lz said...

Elisa - that's so marvelous!! The stillness is such an incredible feeling. "Internal harmony" -- what a brilliant way of describing it!

Yolk E said...

Thanks for coming by, sfauthor--I will check out the book! :-)

And thanks, y'all, as usual!

cirita said...

Congrats Elisa!! This is actually my favorite pose.

cirita said...

I need to read more about the bandhas now. Very interesting E.

Yolk E said...

Cool! I am such a geek, all that stuff is interesting to me. In Ashtanga, you get the bandha stuff beat into your brain! Very helpful, I think.

Johan said...

Yes I've been preaching (it feels like) the benefits of the bandha's in Bikram. They are definitely there, I guess Bikram just thought there was enough for people to learn as it was.

I like this article for people don't know about the Bandha's and how to control them:
http://www.doashtanga.com/Mula.html

Yolk E said...

Ooh, thanks for the link, Johan! :-) Yay for bandha talk.